Meanwhile things at UCO really started to workout for me. Last semester I got a second job tutoring on campus, and I found out I will be able to graduate a semester early. My professors have been accommodating, and I really do like my classes. My heart still wanted to be back in Tulsa though. Commuting 40 minutes one way, everyday, isn't exactly fun. I haven't really made many relationships here. It doesn't feel like the college experience I thought it would. So yes, basically I'm a big pout, and wallowed a lot in my lameness.
Obviously things did not work out for ORU, and I'm starting my last spring semester at UCO. It's not what I wanted, BUT GUESS WHAT? I really do feel peaceful about being here. I still get upset, but I realize that God does everything for a reason. I know I am here at this time for a purpose. There must be someone that needs me here? Maybe I am here to make a difference somehow? I may not see God's purpose in this right now, and that's ok. I know it is the best for me to be here, and to have purpose in each day. I'm trying to forget about the "what-if's", I'm trying to enjoy this time I have here. It's not easy and I don't really get it, but I hope that I can still do what I am here to do, and hopefully have fun along the way.
God's plan may not be what we expected, it might not always seem like the fun thing, and it certainly won't always be easy. BUT being in God's will is more important. He will give us the peace we need, and He will always get us through.
